Happy birthday, mum

Today should be my mum’s birthday. I should be hearing her delight at the flowers I always get her for her birthday, instead on a cold, misty winter day dad and I are taking flowers to her grave. I still don’t understand why she isn’t here, I don’t understand how someone you love so much can be ripped away from you just like that. Why is her name on a bloody cold stone?? The world without her I don’t care for; it feels like nothing has really gone well since we lost her, just seems to be one thing after another, more strain, more bad things, even someone who was so important to me letting me down very badly and always just under the surface the raw hurt of having her taken from us. There are honestly some days when if it weren’t for dad and taking care of the mogs I really wouldn’t care if I went to sleep and never woke up again. I don’t see anything in the future to inspire me or encourage me and it feels like just waiting for the next bad thing to happen all the time and that really isn’t much reason to keep going on, makes you wonder why bother.

4 thoughts on “Happy birthday, mum

  1. So sorry to hear your news Joe…

    I love your blog but have been busy during this past month and only managed to pass by today.

    …I must say that your post is one of the most touching things I've read in a long time.It made me cry…
    Take care, be strong and I hope 2010 brings you much happiness in all that you do.

  2. So sorry to hear your news Joe…

    I love your blog but have been busy during this past month and only managed to pass by today.

    …I must say that your post is one of the most touching things I've read in a long time.It made me cry…
    Take care, be strong and I hope 2010 brings you much happiness in all that you do.

  3. So sorry to hear your news Joe…

    I love your blog but have been busy during this past month and only managed to pass by today.

    …I must say that your post is one of the most touching things I've read in a long time.It made me cry…
    Take care, be strong and I hope 2010 brings you much happiness in all that you do.

  4. So sorry to hear your news Joe…

    I love your blog but have been busy during this past month and only managed to pass by today.

    …I must say that your post is one of the most touching things I've read in a long time.It made me cry…
    Take care, be strong and I hope 2010 brings you much happiness in all that you do.

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